Wednesday, July 15, 2009

before it's too late for you.

We all live in our respective bubbles, we never realize how we all ultimately connect, and how silly and one tracked our feeble minds are, we live and dream inside our isolated well honed boundaries, and woe be unto any who attempts to break through the status quo, …

in one week,


I realized I'm in love with a woman I want to marry more than anything, lost a friend who could have been more than just a friend to a meaningless car accident, almost on the same day I proposed, see my life long buddy fight his fears, man up, and get married to the woman he loves, see my best friend tear her heart apart with her own hands, just because she's too afraid to be loved, listen to my parents rant on and on, about how life sucks, and how hopeless everything is, my arch friend is as usual being a creep about anything that smacks him as emotional, another friend will not take a damned move in her life, because she cant make up her mind what is what, another dear friend took a decision that is decisive and to the point, another kid I like is off somewhere doing well, when he didn't expect it, while another kid is still whirling about in self doubt and recanting a self made mantra that “he can”, …
I care deeply about each and every one of these people, and each is a beautiful, if at times quirky, presence in my life, and I wonder from time to time if they even see the threads that connect them to one another, and how fragile their lives really is, and how beautiful they all are,
and here I am, watching them do stuff, and making up stories to fill in the gaps, while my life takes it's tumbling quirky path, …
you know what, …
it is all connected,
just look up.

R.I.P. Dalia Anna Nabiel, you were a beautiful woman, and a wonderful person, and you deserved better from me.

2 comments:

Hanna said...

A bit of 6 degrees of separation going on here, no?
"the threads that connect them to one another" - you, my dear, ARE the wonderful thread that will forever connect all these people (myself and my cape included) together. Pretty much forever ever.

Mohannad Faried said...

someone else would call it karma, another would call it the balance of probability, fate or whatever ...
every one and everything is connected, whether they choose to admit it or not, all what matters is what (they/we/you/him/me) are going to do about it.

you and your cape *shakes head in amusement* :)